Unstuck

Unless you’ve been living in Antarctica, under a rock, 100 feet under the ocean, you know it’s January.

Most folks out there are blogging about their goals for 2017 or their review of 2016.

But somehow, I got stuck in November.

My mom has been having some health issues, I’m having some health issues, my good friend has had more loss than anyone should have in a handful of months, work has sent me a few difficult projects, and I’m pulled between two of my own book worlds: One that I semi-finished about a year ago, and now I’m knee deep in edits. And I started the other by writing 50,000 words during November.

In the last few weeks, every time I sit down to write, my brain freezes. It’s terrifying. I have no words. I’ve started a host of articles, blogs, letters, and left a ream of blank paper, hours of blank screens in my wake.

A girlfriend “diagnosed” me with vulnerability hangover (a term borrowed from Brene Brown), and I think she’s right. There’s only so many times you can deal with deep emotions before burning out.

I need to find that settled place where my wonder thrives. And there’s only one solution I know:

Silence.
Stillness.
Quiet.

I don’t know what that looks like right now. And that’s rather terrifying to admit: I don’t know. But I know it has to come before my list of things to do.

I’ll still be here working to actually get stuff done, but trying to find a way to do it that doesn’t make me feel like the crazy lady who walks between rooms talking to herself, “I was doing something. What was I doing?” Or other such drivel.

I’ve already made progress. I’ve dropped a few commitments, found ways around housework (props to the hubs for the Roomba I got for Christmas), and I took a two-week break from writing.

But don’t panic if I pop in and out here for a little while. I’m recovering. My brain, my emotions need to heal, to get unstuck. In the meantime, I trust you had a wonderful Christmas and have started out the New Year well.

Thank you for your grace.

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2 thoughts on “Unstuck

  1. Praying for you friend. Rest your heart and mind. Thanks for your honesty, it helps me. I’ve definitely been there before and it so scary, but it’s encouraging when we are honest about it!

  2. Thanks. I’m already feeling more relaxed today because I don’t “have” to write something or do anything other than take care of my family. I’ll have more on my plate tomorrow, but I’ll figure that out tomorrow 🙂

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