I’m sitting on my deck, overlooking the woods, a cool breeze shifts through make the leaves bow and rise, bow and rise . . . almost as if they’re nodding in agreement with the chill in the air–change is coming.
And it isn’t just the movement that reflects coming winter, it’s in the shifting of colors–shading from green to red to brown. And I can’t help contemplating change and coming to the end of things.
Have you noticed that fall trees give a master class in making the end of something beautiful?
It’s something I’m trying to do right now–making the end beautiful.
This fall has been a series of massive changes for my family:
- You all know that we brought our daughter to college in August and
- our son is now a freshman in high school,
- but last Friday was also my last day working for a company I’ve worked for for 25 years. It’s literally a lifetime I’m saying goodbye to. I’m excited because it means more time for my family and more tonight for my writing. But it absolutely feels like a death.
While I want to handle this change like the brilliant sugar maples, I fear that I am more like the trees slowly fading to brown. Ugly, boring, slightly weepy brown. Do you relate?
But just as I think that, my son reminds me how much I like walking in the crisp brown leaves. I love the sharp crackle. The feeling of a slight resistance . . . perhaps brown isn’t so terrible after all
So when I get stuck in fear or sadness, I take on a few strategies:
- BREATHE. Purposeful breath is fantastic for grounding and making me hold on a hot second.
- Look at it. Shame and fear thrive in darkness. But if I turn and look at things with curiosity, it opens me up to why I’m feeling the way I’m feeling and it gives me the opportunity to be gracious toward myself.
- Get thankful. I think of one or two things I’m grateful for. It shifts my focus.
- Make progress. I find one SMALL thing I can do to take a step forward. I give myself permission to not do everything. Instead I do a tiny thing. Clean for 5 minutes. Write one email. Make a to do list for tomorrow.
What about you? What strategies do you have for overcoming fear, shame, and sadness during change?
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